Date: Sunday, 7/8/11
Time: 12.19pm
My Mood: Calm, relaxed
At the momment I'm: watching FRIENDS on tv, sitting on the couch, eating chocolate for breakfast
Hey everyone I’m back! Anyway, I'll tell you all about my trip in the next post ;) :P haha. I've been meaning to post this since before I left.
Anyway I thought I'd tell you the story of the guy I was wrecked over in February. Let me just say from now that I'm not completely over this assho... I mean guy. This guy was the first guy I felt so strongly about. Like the first guy I could actually see myself with for years and years and u get where I'm going with this. Throughout when we liked each other we'd stop talking because he'd say he started talking to his ex and stuff then he'd come back and I'd take him back. About 2 weeks after he told me he liked me and said he was planning to ask me out, he told me he's asking out the girl of his dreams. I was a WRECK. I didn’t eat, sleep, I cried and cried. He'd talk to' me about her because he knew I was still head over heels for him. And I would sit there and listen, never letting him know how much it was tearing me apart. I loved this guy so much that I didn’t care that I was upset, if he was happy, even if it wasn’t with me, I was happy. He'd call her the things he use to call me and compliment her with the same compliments and nick names he had used for me. All I’m saying is, be careful because nothing is ever set in stone. Not saying relationships aren't something to be always distant to but everything is usually on pretty rocky ground. So just think over your actions before you do them, don't let love blind you and always be careful because in life not everyone has good intentions and not everyone cares about not hurting you. There's more to this story that I chose to reveal because, well, I'd rather not put everything on the internet because some things I'm ashamed about. But in any case I want to share this quote that gave me hope after my wreck with Mr. February.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of the Universe. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing so enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are born to make manifest the glory of God which is within us. It is not in just some of us, it is in all of us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence automatically liberates others." -- By Nelson Mandela
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till next time
philophobic girl
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